Now I've been in Sundsvall for about four months, I spent six in Freiburg. I liked Freiburg more if we're only talking about the city, not friends and such. So how come this feels more like home than Freiburg ever felt? I don't know the answer but it's quite interesting. And I can't really tell if Stockholm or Sundsvall is my home now, of course I could say that both are but I don't feel like that. I don't feel like I have two homes, but I'm still not sure which my home is.
When I was in Stockholm I met up with one of my cousins for a walk. One of the many things we talked about was homes. He has grown up in Uppsala, a nearby city, for just as long as I grew up in Stockholm. 2012 he moved to Stockholm to study at a university here, when I asked him what he considered home he had to think a while but said that it was probably Uppsala. Perhaps the same goes for me but I'm not sure.
I guess it depends on how I see the situation I'm in. The reason that Freiburg never was home to me might be because it mainly felt like a great adventure, or a very long vacation. Sundsvall is a city I'll stay in for at least two more years, it's the way my life continues after Stockholm. Perhaps that's what makes it home, that it's an important part of my life.
It might sound like I feel sad while writing this, at least that's the impression I'm giving myself. To make things clear:
I'm not sad at all, I just find it very interesting. Will Stockholm always be my home or will Sundsvall turn more into it? Will Sundsvall be a memory like Freiburg in four years when I've most likely moved somewhere else?
I also feel like I'm calling Freiburg unimportant now, that is absolutely not what it was. It's the best city I've ever lived in, better than both Sundsvall and Stockholm. And I love the people I met there. In two years I'll study journalism somewhere else for the last half year, I might actually pick Freiburg for that, who knows.
Good night.
My house in Stockholm, home?