The 28th of August I got my result, Fx. Meaning an F but a chance to improve it to be good enough to pass instead of a pure fail. I was a bit annoyed but decided to set to work right away the next day. I got up at around 9.00 so that I would have a lot of time to work before the activities of the day that were starting at about 15.00. One hour later, at 10.01 I got a message that my grandmother had died. It wasn't very surprising as she had had a heart attack a few days earlier, she survived that but at her age, 94, things can go fast. But of course it wasn't any news that I wanted to hear and she was the last of my grandparents. I did manage to get quite a lot of work done but obviously I wasn't in a very good mood. I went to the activities of the day and it gave me something different to think about for the time being.
I think it was the day before my grandmothers death that I got the other bad news so I wasn't too happy even before the friday, this was through a phone call, not a message so I can't pinpoint when it was but that doesn't matter much. A close relative of mine had had some kind of bleeding in the brain. Said relative had been training and then suddenly just lost balance, fallen and been unable to get up again. Right then at the hospital they had no idea how serious it was. In the evening on that friday I had a job at the local party place Kårhuset between 20.00 and 04.00, and I hated almost every minute of it. Something I hid quite well, sometimes being an actor is good.
I kept working on improving my study during the week but I wasn't really in a good mood. Still, it had to be finished so I spent approximately 20 hours on it. I handed it in last friday, 4 Sep. I had made the corrections my examinator asked me to but she was very picky and mentioned every detail on my first hand in so I had a feeling that I wouldn't pass. If I failed and had to make an entirely new study I probably wouldn't have done so, meaning that I would be allowed to finish this school year but not start the next one in autumn 2016. However there was nothing more I could do about it so I let it leave my mind.
Two days later, Sunday, 6 Sep, I woke up a bit dehydrated with a slight headache and quite tired. As it was already 12.50 I was hungry, I went to the kitchen only to find that I had neither sandwiches nor any yoghurt left, which is my normal breakfast. Not the best start of a day. It isn't such a big deal as the supermarket Ica is only eight hundred meters away. That didn't mean that I wanted to go, but I needed to get some breakfast after all. Anyway, when I was about to lock the door to my room and go outside I checked my phone and noticed that I had recieved an email. When I looked at it it turned out to be from my examiner for the essay.
I had passed, she still had some complaints but wrote that I followed her instructions well enough and gave me an E. I believe that other teachers would have given me a better grade, perhaps C, but I hardly felt like complaining, I had passed and that was enough. It was also about then that I got to know that my relative with the brain bleeding was only minor and wouldn't have any lasting consequences, neither physical nor mental. Said person will be dizzy and weak for a while but should be just fine again in a few months according to the update that I got today. Of course a few months is a long time but it could have been a lot worse.
The situation with my grandmother obviously couldn't change, but there is a bright side there too. I rarely meet my cousins and other relatives on that side of the family, there is no real reason for it but it just doesn't happen often. The funeral is in two weeks and then we'll all meet. My grandmother always wanted us to meet each other more so she would be very happy if she knew.
Sometimes life really sucks but then it gets brighter again. Such is life.